Xitlali (Xamanxi)

My awakening started on a beach in Mexico at the end of 2017. I felt obligated to attend a friends wedding when I was at my absolute lowest point in life. I had become a highly functional alcoholic. The first part of my flight (from the mid-west to the west coast) greeted me with the challenge of having a panic attack mid-flight. My life had become a constant cycle of depression (from not being able to let go of my past) and anxiety (from wanting so badly to live for the future). The panic attack mid-flight was terrifying to say the least. I made it through with the help of some calming music and found a yoga studio to practice at before leaving the following day for Mexico. When I arrived in Yucatan, I felt like my body was breaking down. Riddled with pain, I searched for an affordable massage therapist on the beach outside the resort I was staying at.  At the end of the massage the practitioner  looked deep into my soul and asked, "Why don't you love yourself?" and "who hurt you?" My eyes filled with tears as he looked right through me. For so long I had guised myself as "Miss Independent" acting like I didn't want or need anything from anyone. I had fooled myself just as I did those around me. For my heart had been broken many times throughout my life and I had grown quite cold so as to protect myself from anymore pain. The massage therapist proceeded to tell me how bad my condition was while making it crystal clear that I was killing myself slowly. 

 

I spent the next few years deeply healing myself, owning my journey and accountability while cycling out of alcoholism. Looking back, I see how I desperately needed that trip and the encounter on the beach that day. Purging myself of alcoholism was not an easy feat as I also needed to cleanse myself of all the earthbound spirits who were attached to me via the heavy drinking. Thankfully, I had found a new way of calming my nerves and letting things go through yoga and meditation. 

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I completed my 200hr yoga teacher training by the end of 2019 right before the walk-in was complete. This accelerated my healing journey and by the end of 2020 I had become a yoga teacher, meditation and breathwork guide, Reiki master teacher, Jyorei and Deeksha Channel, and hypnosis guide. In 2021 I completed my training in Q.H.H.T.® (Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique)  while also diving deeper into my ancestry. It was through my ancestry healing that I learned the answers to many of my "why" questions about the traumas and heartbreaks I had lived through. The more I healed myself, the more I opened to my divine gifts.  In 2022 I learned that I am a walk-in and the next year included the discovery of why, how and when the walk-in started and was complete. You can read more about my walk-in experience in my  blog (X Blog). 

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2024 took me deep into the shadows of my soul. When I was able to rise up though the waves of healing, I connected to the creator and my cosmic families. This took my practice to an entirely new elevation.  My newest adventures in healing include certificate programs in Family Constellations and Kundalini Yoga. 

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Reach out if/when you are ready for more in life. 😊

 

I look forward to continuing to assist humanity on this lovely journey we call life. 

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In joy,

Xamanxi